I don't know how I feel. I feel busy. I feel tired. I feel happy, and frustrated, and overwhelmed, and underwhelmed. I feel like I forgot something. I feel like I should be somewhere. I feel like I'm not doing enough, and like I'm doing too much.
I feel fat. I feel short. I feel pretty. I feel sore. I feel elated. I feel.
I feel too much.
I feel something new every time I wonder how I feel. I feel like I'm over thinking it. I feel like I need a label for every feeling and a feeling for every label.
Sometimes it's ok to just be, to stop feeling - but then you wonder how THAT feels.
I wish I could turn off my brain.
I'm not great at turning my brain off but sitting in my garden watching my chickens helps loads. Their utter absorption in tiny tasks seems to put everything into perspective.
ReplyDeleteWhen I lived in a flat I had a tank of fish. Rather than just have them in the room, make a drink and sit in front of it. Watch them shoal, clean the tank and all their fishy activity.
I feel like you need a drink. And I feel like I'll come and join you. How do you feel about that? :)
ReplyDeleteGin my dear?
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